In Everything

I tried so very  hard not to see You today.

I wanted to let the melancholy of the morning seep deep into my bones and float around in the pea soup weather.

Swallowed by indifference and self-defeat.

I tried so very hard not to see You in my clean kitchen, smelling of freshly brewed coffee and squeezed lemon and basil.

In my daughter's blonde wisps that are slowly growing darker and thicker as she gets taller.

In Your word, that I read reluctantly because I knew it would change my heart and I'm not all that interested in changing me today.

I am tired of the changing and restless at the same time.

I tried so hard not to see You in everything.

But I did.

I do.

Amazing how silly human being are that we try NOT to see God in the things he crafted with his fingers, his love, his heart for us.  We're so lost that we try to avoid the unavoidable- save the creation without acknowledging the creator.   But his hands are everywhere, his voice most prominent.

So, I relent today and know I will be better, peaceful, whole and think that someday I will not fight you so hard.